I ma serving notice that if they do not have a cause and legitimate cure for Meniere's Disease by January 1, 2015, I will kill this blasted dragon's prey - namely Debbie Hasselbach. I've had enough.
Debbie I urge you to please seek out counseling immediately. You don't want to end your life you just want your suffering to end and I can certainly relate to that. I would imagine there are more than a few members here who at one time or another have felt exactly as you do, myself included. Fighting this disease day after day takes a very heavy emotional and physical toll on us and winning the mental battle is almost tougher than the disease itself. Please tell someone close to you (a friend or a family member) what you've just told us. It's not an easy fight but you can find your way out of this dark place you're in right now. Find a counselor in your area immediately who specializes in helping people who are living with a chronic illness. You don't have to go through this alone and there's plenty of help available to you. Take the first big step and call a counselor please.
Yea Debbie your frustration is understandable, but it is not hopeless. There are so many ways attack the dragon. The weapons aginst the dragon are many. The world is better with all of us Meniere's Folks in it including you!
Get to an OTO and discuss having a Vestibular Nerve Section or a Labyrinthectomy. I chose the laby and it ended my fight with meniere's. I gained my life back. Today I live a full life, no more vertigo, no more drop attacks, no more pressure/fullness. I do have slight tinnitus but totally manageable. The beast is gone. Do not harm yourself, slay the beast! I feel your pain, we all know how horrible meniere's can be. Seek help from a counselor who can help you see your way out of the dark hole. Best of luck.
Please don't take any drastic step like that. I agree with redwing - talk to the doctor about the surgery. If your MM is so active and impacting your life to an extent that you don't want to continue....get to the doctor and demand the surgery. That will fix it for you and it won't matter what they find/don't find out about this disease. YOU will be on your way to recovery by Jan!
I'm so sorry. Things must be really hard. You clearly need a change. Maybe this is an opportunity to try something radical--but I very much hope not irrevocable. I'm glad you are sharing here and hope you have in person folks to share with, too. This is really tough stuff and support really helps.
Debbie I am so sorry this disease has taken such a toll on you. Please take everyone's advice and seek help. Putting and end to the suffering does not mean an ending of life. Think of all the pain that causes loved ones. There are so many different ways to treat Menieres.,so many more than there were before. A lot of people have had success with antivirals. Sometimes it takes months for improvement to be felt but it has helped many, myself included. Yes, we all care about each other. Our suffering brings us together. All hope is not lost. I'm very afraid for you. Please post again.
Karenplus8, congrats for taming "your dragon", I hope Debbie will do the same, as I did, too. I went and talked to someone for about a year how the hearing loss and impending vertigo made me feel.
Don't think ahead. Just take one day at a time. Every day we have a new day. Just say, "I will make it through this day." If you try to think about 6 months down the line it will depress and defeat you. One day at a time---that's all you need to think about.
Debbie, I know things are dark right now. I hope things will get brighter for you soon. Things may taste bitter right now but how much more sweet thing will taste when everything improves. I wish you can find relief soon. Paul
At one point in my life I was so close to taking my own life I stood in the kitchen while cooking dinner for my family and actually stared at the knife in my hand. I had visions of just pulling it along my arm all the way up. It would have been so easy and my phone rang. I had some really good friends who called me all the time back then found out it was my hubby who I had confided in and he told all my friends. I never want to get there again. So when my mood started to plummet I called the free counseling clinic at the college down the road and they got me in quick. Your not alone and it will get better!
Debbie, I am sorry you feel so badly, but suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem, and yes MM is temporary in the scheme of things, as others have said there are ways to get relief from MM symptoms including surgery. Please reconsider your plans and seek help to get you through this difficult time you are going through. You are in my thoughts and prayers.
Debbie, hopefully you'll reconsider and be part of the cure. They have to have people like us to find out what will kill the beast. I don't know you or what you face in your every day life. We all have challenges, we all carry our own dragons around. You're not alone here. Please talk to someone, anyone. If you have no one, message me. I'll do what I can to help.