Some of you know that I have been on a journey, bringing my elderly parents back to their "home" state. So much going on... but so grateful to have them back near my home so I am able to help them out as they are 91 and 94. This is a journey that should have taken place 3 or more years ago but they kept telling me they were not ready. Finally my father called one day and said the time has come we need to be closer to family we need help. They have been in assisted living for 2 months now. They do not call it home and they informed me it will never be home. I have come to the conclusion that they are correct it will never seem like home to them, ever. But they are in a wonderful place, the staff is wonderful, the entire environment is wonderful but as they say it is not home.....I told them I can't make it home for you but I am so relieved that you are safe, you have meals prepared for you, you have a clean environment and medical staff 24 hours a day. I can not make you happy but I did make you safe. We have good days and bad days. I forget about the bad and focus on the good. Getting old aint for sissy's I believe Betty Davis said that line and she is so right. I pray every night that my mother will go to sleep and not wake up. She is in a living hell, dementia has taken over her mind and she knows it. I told my husband no one should live past 85 unless they have their mind and physical body intact. So when I reach 85 I told my husband we will be taking a Thelma and Louise road trip....drive our 58 corvette right off the cliff .....he smiled
I'm sorry you're still going through this. It's good to hear from you and get an update. I'm praying for you.
Red, My thoughts and prayers are with you and your wonderful caring husband. I feel the same way you do, when I can no longer care for myself I do not want to be a burden. Let me fall asleep and let the Lord take care of me. God Bless you!!!