Can I just say that depression isn't just feeling "sad" all of the time. It's: Not showering for three days straight Knowing you have dishes to clean. Exams to study for. People to talk to but not doing it Always feeling so exhausted Never getting out of bed Not able to sleep Having no motivation to do anything ever Hating every single part of yourself Recurring thoughts of ending your life No concentration whatsoever And memory?? ha-ha that shit is gone. Stop portraying depression as just feeling "sad" or "down" for a couple days Because there's so much $$$$ing more to it. I just thought this one was a good one to share for those of us who battle Menieres and have felt any of these.
Perfect! I can relate to it all as I'm sure many of us can. I had this before Meniere's and now having Meniere's sure didn't help. You just have to get through one day at a time and start over the next day and hope for a better one.
As you know I have had my share. I'm thankful I've gotten the support and strength to go on. I no longer hate myself, I know longer blame myself. Hugs!
I have good days and bad. When I was first diagnosed I had more down than good. Now I feel like I'm on the upswing. As a significant portion of the depression I have is a chemical imbalance, I'm sure it will return at some time and will just make adjustments as needed when ever that is. Until then, I treasure each day that I feel good enough to participate in life.
Fair, I do know some of these and I think you're the strongest woman I know. Everyone's battle with any of those symptoms goes from one extreme to another.
Sorry moody, I know you do. Sometimes battling some extremely depressing situations. You're a warrior though.
We all deal with difficult days with this condition. Some may have depression/anxiety to start with--and this just makes it worse. Getting the encouragement from folks here really helps--many times friends/family don't understand and it helps to 'sound off' here. I do 'alot' of praying because I do believe in a God that answers prayer. Sometimes not how we like it--but have always 'gotten thru' things in my lifetime that were just 'too overwhelming' to deal with and finally just 'talk it over' with God. Doesn't always make it 'go away'--but I know I'm stronger after that 'talk' for sure. And if one needs help with depression/anxiety--you should 'get it', not just suffer with it. That can and often is 'the answer' we are seeking. You will get thru this--stay strong and know folks here are 'pulling for you and each other'!
W/o wouldn't be depressed with this BE. Today I was talking to my dentist and I told him my dizziness and vertigo have been resistant to the the increased dose of A/V. This the third time I went back to the max dose. This time it is not responding. I said but I keep telling myself that are people in Sloan Kettering that would trade places with me. He said " I don't know about that John." I know that is very pessimistic, but at least he gets how awful it is. That he believes some cancer patients would trade places with me. For me it kid an up and down ride. Some days I am upbeat and some days I want to scream and feel.sorry for myself. There was someone on this forum years ago who said I can handle.anything this disease throws at me. I want to be him.
If a life long history of depression and anxiety has taught me is that I am a lot stronger than I think I am. We all are.
Well said BumbleBea, well said!! For me the main thing is to be aware that I'm heading into that dark abyss and keep that awareness but still let myself have my little, but short, and I don't always make that, short, pity party. Get it over with and do me best to move on. Anti depressants help me stay more even keel. The days of feeling so off, tired from fighting the vertigo/dizzy, constant noise, etc. We do find that sometimes we are stronger than we think, or we push ourselves harder than others know or think possible. We want our lives - as they were and we do what we can! As others have said, someone out there is SO worse off than you!!! My first attempt. Hope it's OK.
Dizzy red, that was wonderful. I think this thread could be an outlet for so many. We're all here to support each other after all. I'm not really depressed since I have that under control. But I wake up and I can feel anxiety running through my veins. I have some serious, I mean serious, issues going on with some of my adult kids. The older they get the more serious the issues are. Don't think when your kids get older you're done parenting. So today I'm trying to control all of the different scenarios and conversations from yesterday from racing around my brain. Who knows what today will bring but I'm fighting the best I know how.
Interesting topic. Depression can be caused chemical imbalance or situations and stress in our lives or a combination of the two. Depression can manifest itself in many ways. Some of us are sad, some get irritable, others just can't cope or function with what seems the most simple of tasks to others. It is very difficult for family members to figure us out and especially figure out why we acknowledge we have depression but we won't take our meds. BumbleBea, I hear you about stress and depression caused by situations with adult children. In my experience there comes a time when we need to assess when it is time to let those adults deal with their problems. When is it time to say I am no good to anyone if Imdont take care of myself. Taking care of myself entails not having to deal with your adult, repeat, adult problems. Of course I don't know your details, so I could be way off base, but how do you help somebody who is dragging you down the rabbit hole? Make them solve their own issues. I've been through the whole the whole rigamorole and for now come out the other side and I truly regret what I put my family through . Depression sucks
Yep, depression does suck! For me it is both chemical imbalance and situational. I have two kids, 15 and 19, with special needs. One of which is giving us a horrible time right now. I take my meds religiously. I know what I'm like with out them or if they need adjusting and I am one that has a hard time functioning and sad. It's hard to climb out of that hole once you fall in. Luckily, I have a very supportive husband and family. They help me as much as they can, especially since the MM diagnosis at the beginning of the year.
Pixie, Thanks so much for your reply. I was anxious all day and other than talking to my daughter again going over everything. You see she loves one man but he has legal restrictions on him and a big hill to climb for the rest of his life. But she does love him. Then there's the othe guy who moved here from Ohie to get to know each other, they've seen each other in person for 2 weeks each time. I'm guessing she finally figured out life with someone online can always be turned off and seems so nice...until you deal with someone everyday. He's not going far fast and he too has a big hill to climb. I want her to follow her heart BUT I need this resolved one way or the other and soon. Looking back on the anxiety I had all day yesterday...at the end it was my mind causing the anxiety waiting for the bomb to drop, so to speak. Now I'm sitting here wondering what will happen next. She's 24, in college for the nursing program but she's very naive when it comes to relationships so she talks to me and I give the best advice I know. This is my daughter. We have a special bond now that she's an adult. I can't back off and let her make this important decision by herself. I'm researching and we go over what I've found together so she gets the informed information as well as mine. Another day here.
BumbleBea, It's obvious that we have a different philosophy on how to prepare our kids to become adults and function out in the world. I will bow out of the discussion . It's your choice to take on all that stress and none of my business, really.
Pixiechick. I'm sorry if I led you to believe our different philosophies mean we can't discuss any topic. I do appreciate any kind of feedback. We can all agree to disagree. One of the differences is that mine are already adults, lol. Talk with you soon.
Your plate is full, moody mum! Not fair when you have to control a chemical imbalance and situational depression. I assume there's a vestibular disorder on top of that. Wow . The meds do help, once you get the right one and the right dose figured out. Good for you that you are aware what you need and that you look after yourself. That is a big part of the battle. Family support is huge. Good luck!