Today did not start off well. I have been having bad insomnia lately and last night I went to bed at 10pm about to fall over exhausted.. I ended up waking up every half our all night. I am pumping myself full of sugar as I cannot have caffeine. Soooo sooo tired :-X But On a brighter note.. My wife is coming home today for 11 days. She had to move back to Canada to take care of her terminally ill mother last September. We have been together with each other maybe 15 days over the last year and probably 3 months total over the last two years We bought our dream home right when it all started. She has barely stayed in it. It is a huge by standards of everything we have lived in.. It feel SOO LONELY without her there. She has so much to deal with up there I feel bad talking about my dizziness or insomnia or whatever else is going on. It is hard for me to tell her I barely feel like I am surviving each day because I know she is going through the same thing. So this will be a good weed. Feeling good or feeling bad We will have each other. .. Now if I can just survive the entire day of work.. Drive 70 miles to the North side of town to get her from the airport. Drive her back in rush hour traffic.. All with dizziness.. depression.. and all on about 2 hours of sleep to amplify it. Then hopefully I will fall asleep exhausted with her next to me FINALLY for the first time in 6 months... All the days I have survived. I just have to survive today. Appreciate those close to you.. Make sure to tell them you do and how much you love them every chance you get. I know there are too many of you who have it rougher than us. And to you I say I have no clue how you do it because my wife and I seem to be drowning in it.
Weed would have been fine, LOL. My day started quietly for a change. I'm having a birthday party for my grandson on Sat. All of my kids will be here. We may disagree or argue but we are all very close. An Italian family. So now I'm starting the cooking. I enjoy cooking for these get togethers. I know how lonely life can sometimes be. Especially when it's someone so close to you. I believe she's doing what she has to. No regrets. As far as I'm concerned sugar will keep me up. I don't have a secret remedy for insomnia. I wish I did. Dizziness while driving will only make the dizzy worse. But I also understand the need to push through and maintain some measure of normality. Enjoy this time with your wife. I'm sure she wouldn't want you to hide your symptoms. I'd want to know. In either case you have someone you love. Hold that love in your heart and enjoy every second. I like this thread!
Sugar does keep me up lol Just not as long as a good strong coffee does. I just cannot do the coffee right now. or actually I am scared to lol. It keeps me awake and alert and I focus great but by about 2pm my eyes start jumping and I start stressing. Oh that sounds good..I have an Aunt from New York who is italian. God bless her soul that woman can cook! lol. And I can eat! so that works out well
My hope for today is for my daughter to get some great pics since I'm driving 30 minutes for her to go somewhere nice for photos. I know I'm going to enjoy our girl time.
The days over so I'll do my hope for tomorrow. I hope for a nice, peaceful, enjoyable lunch with a friend at Longhorn tomorrow afternoon. With NO kids!!!! Whoo hooo!!!