I may sound like a completely naive idiot saying this, but seeing a psychologist is essential to getting through this. I didn't realize how much pain I was in. This disease is not for the faint of heart and we're all a bunch of badasses. Keep on rocking! We'll get through this. Seek out a good psychologist who deals with chronic disease. Well worth the money and time. It helps me cope and realize what a wonderful life it is. This disease does not define me, nor will it ever. We can all still have fulfilling, happy lives. I absolutely f&[email protected] hate this disease though and the lack of care and research surrounding it. It would drive anyone mad.